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I'm tired and should be sleeping right now but I really felt like sharing this today. The other day I had a complete breakdown and this is what I wrote in my journal:

Dear Journal,
I'm at the point where I'm too tired to care that I'm tired. I don't know who I am anymore. I'll be over him for days, even weeks and then something just snaps. And the songs I usually love make me weep. I stand in my closet, almost glaring at that one scarf hanging there mocking me. But I can't help but grab it. Then I can no longer take it and almost collapse under my own emotions. I cling to the door frame and clutch the scarf, which holds so much emotion, for dear life. If I let go of either, the results would be catastrophic. I just want to move on but I can't seem to let go. Of the door, the thought of it all. The happiness and fun that went along with it. Or the scarf, actually him and who he was and all of the things he made me feel. At this moment in time, I'm not sure which I'm afraid to let go.

I've been having a really rough time lately and I'm sure that journal makes little sense to anyone but me but for some reason, I need to share it.
-Christine

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So, I know I haven't kept this blog up very well lately. I am very sorry to anyone who actually still checks back! But I've decided to put it on hold for the summer because my schedule it quite full and I would rather spend my summer outside than on the computer. I hope to talk to everyone sometime this fall after school starts back up.
-Christine <3

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For the past few days I have been playing the song Lucky by Jason Mraz and Colbie Caillat over and over and over and over and I think you get the picture. It's actually kind of ridiculous. Does anyone else ever do this or am I just, lets say unique.... lol. I do this quite often actually. I fall in love with one specific song and can't get enough of it. What do you guys think about the obsessive repeating AND the song itself? Talk to you soon, bye.
-Christine <3

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"I have made this longer only because I could not find the time to make it shorter." Oh my goodness, this is my favorite quote! And I don't even know who it's by sadly :( What are some of your favorite quotes and sayings?
-Christine <3

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Hi everybody! I'm back.

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yay!! it's winter break and i am soo happy to be out of school for a few weeks. 2009 is fast approaching and i can't wait to see what the new year will bring for us. for sure a new president and a changing economy, more responsibility around the house and new challenges to face. but i'm wondering more about the unpredictable events that will pop up in the future.

well, i realize i haven't been keeping up with my promise to come on here more often but hey, maybe that will be one of the changes that will take place in the new year. ttyl guys :)
-Christine <3

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wow i'm sorry, i haven't really been keeping up my promise to be on more often. hmm, at the moment, everything is not the best. i am in the middle of huge drama at school. i'm not really gonna go into it but every one's talking about and kinda mad at me and honestly idk why they even care about what happened. long story short, it's not going super well right now. i'll try to be on more but i'm not sure if it'll happen. ttyl
-Christine♥